Zhui Xu

245. The road to the 245 chapter (four)

It is a matter of childhood.

“…At that time, my mother didn’t like me very much, because I was a girl.” Looking at the sky, Su Tan Er whispered openly after laughing. “She always hopes… I can give it to the future.” A male baby, I think so too, but I am at least warm to me. He said that I am smart. In the future, a younger brother will definitely be smarter. I always look at my future brother from me, and my mother will even look at it. I don’t want to see it. At that time, I used to stick to my mother. But my mother ignored me. Sometimes I did something wrong, which made her annoyed. She didn’t beat me, just waved her to let me take me away. This is the biggest look in the world. This is the case… Later I knew that my mother wanted a younger brother. At first I even hated my brother. I don’t understand how the girl is different…”

The wildflowers on the hillside were spotted, and Su Tan Er put his hand on the lower abdomen to see the white clouds falling in the evening. Ning Yi closed her eyes and smiled. At this time, she opened her eyes: “Nothing, they don’t like us, we don’t like her.”

“Oh, I can’t like my mother, I can’t do it, otherwise I will be poked, saying that the son-in-law is not filial.”

Ning Yi turned her head and looked at her for a while, saying it in a serious way: “They can’t beat me.”

“Oh…” Su Tan Er couldn’t help but cover his mouth. After a while, he only looked at the sky and spoke again.

“I was quite strange among the girls. Later I read some books. I didn’t feel that this is human nature as everyone shows, but I feel that it is not fair to me and my mother. I am there. In the big house, as the mother grows up, she feels that she wants to be a boy who regrets her and her mother. She wants to take the business at home and on the other hand feel that she is a girl. Everything you learn is good, or else you don’t prove that you actually envy the boys, so you won’t lose?”

Ning Yi reached for her to pick up a grass stem sticking to the hair. Su Tan Er’s voice was long: “When I grew up in that family, my mother was good to me when I was young. I always said that we are big families, I am everyone. Yan Xiu, everyone is envious. But when I am sensible, I feel that there is nothing to envy. I don’t like me, my mother doesn’t like it. If it’s a small family, there is no such trouble. In fact, I understand that If it wasn’t that family, it wouldn’t be too big. If I had a brother on it, I didn’t have the same pressure on my mother-in-law. I wouldn’t be left out. I don’t like the time when I was with my mother. Later, I found out that I also became the same person as them, that family…no human touch…”

“I…concubine’s, not everyone’s show, just learn from others, but it’s not like it. Concubine’s … like poetry, you can’t do it yourself, you don’t know how to read it, just tell yourself, then you have to There are too many things to learn and do business. There is no time at all… In fact, it is not. Concubine’s doesn’t like poetry at all. It just likes the feeling of being sought after. Sometimes I think of it and see my mother-in-law. Look, I don’t want to have a baby in the future. If I have a child, I can’t raise it. She is like me, blame me for being a mother, what can I do…”

“The standard is too high, no one will simply like poetry… you will be a good mother.” Ning Yi inserted.

Su Tan Er shook his head and smiled: “When I was 14 or 15 years old, I didn’t want to be a relative, I was dragging and dragging, and then I chose Xiang Gong when I really couldn’t keep going.”

She turned her head and looked at Ning Yi lying next to me: “But it wasn’t really since, let Xiao Chan take care of Xianggong, and the family ran away that day. I came back after a few days, but lived in the back. Children, I don’t have too much respect for Xianggong…”

“Isn’t it already good?”

Su Tan Er shook her head on the grass, her expression had calmed down, just a little natural smile: “No…” When she said this, her voice had already sobbed a little. “Not very good, it is just… …concubine’s in the costumes, dressed like everyone’s show, well-prepared, just like the poetry. Concubine’s …… just thinking about yourself, thinking about keeping the family, let this home… look Like a home, not being poked by others, it is enough, concubine’s never thought about it…”

“Woman is really trouble…”

“…can think about it now.”

The sound of the two people is together, Ning Yi is boring and muttering, Su Tan Er is a whisper in the slight whimper. After that, I couldn’t help but laugh at this. Ning Yi closed her palms with her eyes closed, and her fingers almost hit the cheeks of Su Tan Er. Su Tan Er turned her head and closed her eyes, leaning her cheeks on her back. In his hand, he felt the touch of his fingers.

Both of them have always been decisive people, do not like the feelings, when together, although there are small buildings, night talks and other romantic conversations in this era. But in fact, Su Tan Er’s temperament, the original heart on the small building, is also speaking in a natural attitude, there are not many sweet words. Later, Su Family suffered a big disaster. The feelings of the two men leaped forward, and then Su Tan Er burned the building, consummate marriage, although there will be a few sweet words, but it is basically between the bed.

Su Tan Er’s little daughter is very rare, and each other is a powerful person, even if it is really flirtatious, it is just a matter of heart. It’s only these two days, after I learned about my pregnancy, and then I knew Ning Yi’s injury, although she was silently accompanying Ning Yi, she didn’t talk nonsense, but at this point, she really opened up what she thought she didn’t care. Things vented.

“Concubine’s now knows that Xiang Gong’s thoughts on the things at that time are in my heart. The concubine’s thoughts are not overwhelming. It’s really embarrassing to think of it… At that time, concubine’s is a stupid student, reading a few books. The book, I don’t think about things, I don’t know what to do with people, I just think… as long as I can control the Xianggong, I’m a fool, and I’m the concubine’s opponent…”

Ning Yi smiled and said: “Now is not.”

“It’s a public opinion in the heart of the public. Maybe it’s human nature. Concubine’s now think, if these can be done again, concubine’s must be good for the public, concubine’s …… want to learn to be a real everyone, want to teach each other Concubine’s didn’t want to marry him at the age of eighteen, let others say that he had a sloppy old Young Lady. If he was married to Xianggong when he was fourteen and fifteen, then that would be the case… One thing… everything is different, concubine’s will not be willing to pull the Xianggong to Hangzhou…”

Su Tan Er said that in front of the words, although some whimper, but also calm, just said the last sentence, finally finally cried out, her hands clenched his fists on the side of his body, shaking slightly, crying badly. This woman has always been arrogant, although it is introverted under the appearance of gentleness, but the vertical and horizontal shopping malls, the concept of life is almost as sharp as Ning Yi, once things happen, first of all, only seek solutions, regret The emotions can only be called induction or introspection. However, at this time, knowing that the road is difficult, the husband’s injury is also likely to be implicated by long-distance travel, and it is actually enticing for these emotions.

Ning Yi sighed, moved, and leaned over to his wife, Su Tan Er grabbed his clothes and gritted his teeth.

“We will go back and have a chance.” Ning Yi said one.

Su Tan Er has already cried: “I want to have a child for the sake of the family. I want to be a teacher. I don’t want to be reluctant. I don’t want to do business anymore. I don’t want to be myself… but I think now, if now …… No such child, just now, there is no, I will do it in the future. I have seen these things in the past two days, and I am desperately trying to get out. I know that Xianggong is being held under pressure, even though there is no responsibility for the children. But I am really scared… The doctor said that the injury of the public needs peace of mind, need to be rested, and then rely on his own body to support the past. Xiang Gong, you are working hard to escape, how the body can survive… I have some advice But I know I can’t persuade…”

She cried so badly at Ning Yi that she was so depressed that her body trembled: “In these two days, Xiang Gong was asking those people things, planning those things, I was by the side of the public… I was holding on to the side of the public.” I don’t talk, I’ve been telling a lot of people in my heart, it’s useless to say it, it’s useless to say it, just to make you more annoyed, can’t make you bother to do things while still bothering me. But I think, if I am like those Ordinary women are just fine, just crying and crying that you are not allowed to do this, and then you have nothing to do with it…”

Ning Yi patted her on the shoulder: “You know that it’s useless…”

“When I can’t help it…” Su Tan Er sucked her nose. “When I can’t help it, I went to the tent to hide, sit for a while, hold back and stop crying. They all cry. After several times, they want to come over and persuade you, I will block them. I don’t want you to bother to talk to them, but also to persuade them, I don’t tell you that it’s useless, and I don’t want to talk. You are consuming… I didn’t want to tell you this…”

After she said this, she cried in a low voice, but it was better after all. Ning Yi waited for a while and said, “I will be fine.”

Su Tan Er touched her tears, but the tears still fell, leaning on his chest, nodded: “Be sure to get better. If you can’t get better, I can’t meet such a fair, and I don’t want children.” I don’t want to be home… I wasn’t a good mother, I’ve done something that has broken someone else’s home… I’ve told you that I have your child in your stomach, you’re tired now. You can’t shout tired, you have to hold on. But it doesn’t matter if you can’t support it, let’s go find you…”

She stared at Ning Yi with her eyes open, and her lips were tight on the oval face. She used the woman’s body to hang on the mall. It has always been a silent style. Because of its exquisite appearance, it is only a girl in her early twenties. It is not like a businessman who decides on the sofa, but at this time, only that party In the big eyes that have been crying, the stubborn atmosphere that has been formed on the long-term shopping mall but has been converging, mixed with the gentle face, is just to convey a more heartfelt message to the people in front of you: this is your woman. .

Ning Yi smiled and said: “Don’t underestimate your family, no matter what, I will survive. This child is born.”

Su Tan Er touched her lower abdomen and then leaned against Ning Yi. Her other hand glared at Ning Yi’s clothes and closed her eyes. She seemed to be thinking about something in her mouth. She seemed to be praying, but the mountain breeze came over. I can’t hear the specific words.

The sky is flowing, the sunset glows through the sky and the mountains, and the night falls. In the camp of the fugitives, the army begins to operate busy. The next day, the camp was again recruited. The rear chasing distance was not far from here. When it was approaching the noon that day, they began to get a message from the refugees who were in the order, just in front of them, the biggest escape team. I started to guilty… (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (qidian.com) to vote for the recommended ticket, the monthly ticket, your support is my biggest motivation.)