travel on the tip of the tongue

Lin Shenlu did not leave, but chose to stay in Lishui for the night. He wanted to calm down and let his heart relax.

He is really tired these days.

Both physically and mentally.

And I'm afraid I won't be able to go back at this time.

Instead of this, it is better to give yourself a breathing time.

Whale Inn.

Chamomile.

The room was very fresh.

Hundreds of chamomiles are being placed temporarily in the flower pots surrounded by bricks at the door.

Clusters of tiny flowers exude a fresh aroma.

The white petals and bright yellow stamens are very comfortable.

Of course, there is also a bouquet of freshly cut chamomile flowers in a vase on the bedside table in the room.

This kind of flower has a very long flowering period, and it can survive for at least [-] days even in a vase.

This is the room that Lu Zhaoxi opened for Lin Shenlu.

Lying on the bed, listening to the wind and rain that continued to ravage the inn outside the window, Lin Shenlu looked at a painting hanging on the opposite wall.

It was a work selected from the art exhibition at that time, and it was hung in this room.

It was a picture of a man with his head in his hands looking up.

Picture quality is not clear.

The colors are vibrant, too, and the background of crossed reds and yellows makes the painting especially depressing.

The man in the painting is like Lin Shenlu staring at the painting now.

Hesitant, uneasy, shouting, depressed...

Lin Shenlu also became more and more uneasy......

He told himself over and over in his heart... that he likes An Muxi, and An Muxi also likes himself...

It's just that I haven't found her yet, although no one is optimistic about them, and no one supports them, but so what?

Shouldn't there be a love like myself and An Muxi in this world?

If even the client himself and An Muxi are not firm...

Then this love will really disappear.

Lu Zhaoxi said that this fragile feeling was verified through this time.

Do not!

Lin Shenlu felt that he was even more determined.

I have to find An Muxi,

After all the twists and turns, everyone has to find their own belonging.

……

Lin Shenlu suffered from insomnia, opened the window, scattered raindrops fell on Lin Shenlu's face with the wind, looked at the woods and rain on the mountainside, Lin Shenlu's heart hung in the air with the faint mist in the air, This feeling of being emptied filled Lin Shenlu with disappointment.

What does the future look like?

Future self, future love, everything in the future...what will happen?Lin Shenlu didn't know.

.........

"Blue Whale, are you asleep?" In the midst of despair, Lin Shenlu decided to send a message to Sea Blue Whale. Whether it was a friend or a partner, Lin Shenlu knew that this woman could read his emotions.

If you don't find someone to talk to, Lin Shenlu will suffocate.

After a few minutes.

Surge: Didn't sleep, I'm still in the hospital, here at Bao'er.

After a pause, Sea Blue Whale continued to send a new message.

Surge: What's the matter, little deer?Are you in a bad mood?

Sea Blue Whale asked Lin Shenlu with some concern.

Wu Qi: No, I just feel that I suddenly lost the fulcrum of my life, which is very uncomfortable.

Wuqi: Don't worry, it will be fine soon, my discomfort is only temporary, Bao'er still needs me.

Surge: Made an embarrassing smile.

Surge: Don't think too much, any man grows up slowly, there is no immature man, a man is willing to show his vulnerability because he cares, when a man doesn't care about a woman, he will be stronger than anyone Mature.

Wuqi: Thank you for your understanding.

The sea blue whale did not reply.

Lin Shenlu didn't post again.

The two fell into a period of silence.

After a while, Lin Shenlu spoke again.

Wu Qi: Blue Whale, I want to say sorry to you, I blamed you wrongly before.

After a pause, Lin Shenlu continued to post.

Wu Qi: I have already found Lu Zhaoxi, we talked a lot.

Lin Shenlu saw typing... typing... on the phone screen and paused for a long time.

Then I got one.

Surge: Are you in Lishui?Looking for Lu Zhaoxi?

Wuqi: That's right, I'm at the Whale Deer Inn, and I talked a lot with Lu Zhaoxi.

Sea Blue Whale didn't speak any more, and they accepted Lin Shenlu's words, and the two of them fell into silence again.

Wuqi: Sorry before.

Surge: You have apologized.

Wuqi: I’m talking about the past, in Dali, in Lishui, in Hoh Xil...

Wuqi: Maybe my way of dealing with feelings is wrong. During this strange acquaintance, everyone has received different injuries. I thought it was okay, but I needed to add an apology.

Surge: Don't talk about the past, everything I do is what I want, and it has nothing to do with you.

Wuqi: I never thought I was a bad person until someone told me that I was a scumbag. What about you, do you think I am a man who plays with emotions?

Surge: Maybe not, I don't want to talk about this issue.

Wu Qi: Oh, then go to bed early, tomorrow I will be in Chengdu.

Surge: Okay, Baoer has me here, don't worry for now.

.........

At the end of the conversation with the sea blue whale, Lin Shenlu was eager to get the answer but there was no result.

So in the end I am not mature enough, or I don't like it enough?

Lin Shenlu didn't have an answer for himself either.

Men are always looking for a suitable growth track for themselves in the period of struggle and pain.

No one is an exception.

……

After returning to Chengdu for a few days, it rained continuously from Lishui to Chengdu.

It is still rainy in Chengdu these days.

Every day, Lin Shenlu came to An Muxi's house with an umbrella and waited for a while, but it was a pity that the two of them failed to meet after all, and the trees in the community began to fall their golden leaves without Yi Ren.

It's autumn, it's really here.

A fallen leaf was blown by the wind and rain and landed on Lin Shenlu's face.

Lin Shenlu watched quietly.

Let the rain beat the umbrella.

In the raindrops that kept falling, Lin Shenlu felt his childishness.

Such a search for a needle in a haystack, how could he find An Muxi, and he was not filming a TV series or writing a novel.

That poor fate has long been dissipated with An Muxi's resolute departure.

Frustrated and lost, Lin Shenlu gradually felt that he might never have the chance to meet An Muxi in this life.

Forget it, stop thinking about it.

The sky gradually darkened, fog mixed with rain covered the whole world, and Lin Shenlu's cell phone vibrated suddenly.

Turning on the phone, it was a message from Aunt Wang, the nurse.

Aunt Wang's news...

Lin Shenlu hastily turned on the phone.

That's right.

The first news that Lin Shenlu saw in the past few days made him feel better.

Su Baoer woke up.

Another fallen leaf slid from the air with the wind and rain and fell in front of Lin Shenlu.

Autumn has really come, it is the harvest season!

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Is it the harvest season for monthly tickets?