Crow's Paradise

Countless broken eyeball-like shadows rolled together to form the shape of a crow.

A hazy consciousness came together——

who I am?

"Yao Yan?"

Why am I Yaoyan?

Because of memory?

What is memory? Is memory important?

Without this memory, can I be regarded as Yao Yan?

No, the most critical question is why "Yao Yan"?

Is it important whether Yao Yan or not?

Well, no, the key should be "I am Yaoyan", "Yaoyan=I".

Is this based on the idea of ​​self-protection and self-positioning?

Because the organ used by human beings for thinking is used to manage the body. Because of such inertia, after having so-called free will, or does it form path dependence because of inertia?

From external reasons, if your own safety is not the first priority, you will be eliminated.

So it's because of the sense of security?

From a physiological point of view, people will have a certain degree of vigilance about unknown things.

Because of the sense of security.

However, the core is actually the person's realization that he has "forgot something" and that he "doesn't know".

For example, when people lose their memory, if they forget a lot of things, even if they forget something themselves, then the fear and uneasiness they will experience will be less than if they knew about it.

The pursuit of "who am I" is itself a human flaw and a proof that humans are affected by the body.

But, when I think about it this way, do I have a presupposition that "it is unsafe to be affected by foreign objects" and "may be harmful"?

Me, what the hell?

Why do I think I should keep thinking about it?

Why should I think?

There is a fear of stopping thinking because of a sense of security.

Projection of "death"?

Is stopping thinking equivalent to stopping living?

The underlying logic originates from the body.

So, what should I do?

Keep thinking? Looking for a reason?

No, why look for reasons, do reasons matter?

That’s not right. Why does the judgment “important” exist?

By the way, I remembered.

"I" should anchor a meaning of existence to "self".

Losing this meaning, "I" may give up everything, may also lose the standard of choice and the ability to judge.

But, does the ability to judge mean anything?

Why am I thinking about this problem?

Why ask why? Because of curiosity?

But "I" should not have such a thing as curiosity

The chaotic thoughts are intertwined with each other, like a "crow" formed by the rolling shadows of countless eyeballs. The outlines are scattered and reorganized, spread and gathered.

Perhaps it took more than ten minutes, or perhaps more than ten days, or more than ten years, before Yao Yan gradually "recovered" his consciousness.

What catches the eye is the calm water surface that is connected to the sky and reflected by countless stars.

Yao Yan couldn't help but be silent for a moment as his consciousness gradually became clearer.

I see.

He finally figured out a problem.

Why you are "so special".

Why do other "spiritual creatures" have their own desires or obsessions.

It's because "spiritual creatures" without their own desires and obsessions may have disappeared.

Without the "self", without the will to assemble the "self", the spirit cannot even be condensed.

Even if you have the ability to resurrect, you may not do it because you have no motivation.

"Life or death, it doesn't matter."

After losing motivation, you will be in such a mental state.

This is something that is easy for humans to understand, but difficult to understand.

The former refers to understanding the reasons, while the latter tends to mean "identification".

Humans can be deceived, which means they can also mislead themselves and deceive themselves.

Looking at the water, he couldn't help but start to think about what he had encountered before.

Defects mean great operability.

If the judgment is completely based on 100% of the basis and needs to be "exactly the same" to reach the judgment, then it will indeed be very rigorous.

But this also loses space and becomes rigid.

The advantage is precision, but the disadvantage is rigidity.

However, the word "rigid" itself carries a value judgment, a word of praise and blame.

Complimentary and derogatory words are the simplest, easiest to judge and detect, but they are also the most likely to infect people.

This type of description can be used to make the target make judgments such as "being attacked" or "surrendering".

As for why you think of these?

because

"World Will".

Even though he was almost killed just now, he also realized one thing -

They have thinking but do not have a very strict judgment mechanism. Even if they weave strict defenses for themselves through knowledge and experience, they cannot avoid the risk of being fooled.

No, even if there is a strict judgment mechanism, it can be fooled, awakened, and exploited.

He had no so-called fear.

The memory inherited from his former self and the three perspectives and logic embedded in this set of memories told him that "for safety", he needed to be "cautious" and needed to remain in awe or vigilance of the world.

But, he doesn't need it.

Because "safety" is not important to him.

Death is not terrible.

Fear of death?

Yao Yan, who looked like a crow, shook his head.

The driving force he gave himself was the "value sequence" he created for himself based on his memory.

In this value sequence, "security" comes first.

But in fact, this value sequence has an implicit premise——

He needs to decide that this sequence of values ​​is credible.

He must trust this sequence of values ​​and then he will regard safety as the core of his thinking according to the sequence.

However, his concept of the word "credible" is in a state of "distrust".

No, the description "distrust" carries with it a pejorative presupposition.

But he wasn't sure how to describe this feeling.

"It doesn't matter"?

Perhaps it can be described this way.

His thinking, his judgment, and all his actions require his initiative.

Once he stops, he becomes silent.

Unless there is an outside force pushing him.

It's similar to that "world will".

That's not right, the world's will is "awakened" after being stimulated.

However, to be more precise, that world will wake up due to stimulation and perform "self-protection" behavior. This behavior that is close to "biological" is a "natural phenomenon".

In that world, this kind of biological-like reaction became a "natural law".

If you use mechanical materials to replicate the structure of a living thing, it will act like a living thing. So, is it a "living thing"?

Looking at the water and the stars, Yao Yan's thoughts were floating rapidly, thinking about the various gaps that could be manipulated behind this simple problem.

In that world, there is a "judgment" aspect.

If there are standards and judgments, then

Can be fooled, can be exploited.

And, there is another place.

“Are spiritual creatures that have no self-awareness, no motivation and fall into ‘silence’ already ‘dead’?”

If there is no death

ps: I played games until noon, slept until midnight, got up, ate, watched videos, and coded, which took three hours.

If only I could control my attention with precision.

If humans could precisely control their own bodies, this kind of thinking would be a cliché fantasy setting.